Category Archives: A Writing Life

735. In the Middle

I grew up in a firmly Republican household. Democrats were fools and maybe pinkos. (It was the fifties.) Black marchers in the deep South were just outside agitators from the North.

Watching people being firehosed for asking to be treated as humans convinced me that the last part was wrong. Just observing the world convinced me that the first part was wrong.

But it didn’t make me a Democrat. Just because X is wrong, that doesn’t mean Y is right.

My background does make me want to scream when some talking head says that were are “so polarized, more than we ever have been.” Really? Perhaps they should read a history book. America has always been polarized. We even fought a war over our polarization back in the 1860s.

When my parents hated Democrats, and Democrats probably hated my parents, they were just being the same kind of abrasive American we have always been.

So I have chosen to be neither an Elephant nor a Donkey, just a stubborn schmuck who listens to both sides.

Let me put that in the fewest possible words:

Every opinion has another set against it.
Learn only one opinion, and you think you know everything.
Learn the other and you find yourself right back to knowing nothing.

As Spock said to Kirk, “The answer probably lies somwhere in the middle.” But where in the middle? That’s the hard part, and it is up to you to figure it out.

That is, unless you want to stamp a Donkey or and Elephant on your forehead and stop thinking altogether.

734. A Rant from the Past

As I have said recently, I am running short on hours to provide a quality post every week, so I have decided to republish a few oldies. Hold on to your hat . . .

This is from post 53, November 30, 2015. I was fighting a new bad thing, which is now an old bad thing, accepted by everybody, and vicious pollutant of the English language.

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Dear reader, batten down the hatches. I am going to rant.

I work very hard at appearing calm, balanced, and of “an equable disposition”. It’s all a lie. I really live at a slow simmer, ready to break into a full boil.

I hate ignorance, complacency, and sloppiness, which makes it very hard to watch TV news and all but impossible to watch commercials. I can’t drink coffee while watching TV for fear I’ll throw my mug at the screen.

Of all the irritants in daily life, probably nothing grinds my gears as much as those who torture the English language while thinking they are speaking well.

So, get ready . . .

Small means little. Little means small. What does small-little mean? Is it smaller than little, or littler than small? Despite the fact that it makes no sense whatsoever, small-little seems to have completely replaced both small and little in everyday speech.

Arrggh!

First ever — are you kidding me? First ever! First means first. Period. It is an absolute. All reasonable modifiers added to first reduce the field over which it is absolute. The first person to graduate from Harvard is absolute. The first black person to graduate from Harvard is also absolute, but from a smaller set of people. The first left handed, gay, Canadian Mormon to graduate from Harvard is absolute, from a yet smaller set.

Yuri Gagarin was the first man in space. Saying he is the first ever man is space doesn’t make the statement more absolute, it just makes the person speaking seem ignorant.

If you’re first, you’re first. Saying first ever doesn’t make you more first. It doesn’t make you any firster.

What next? Infinity-er, followed by infinity-est?

Arrggh!

The English language changes constantly. What is normal today is likely to seem quaint tomorrow. Despite this rant, I have no problem embracing change, but as users of the English language we still have one obligation.

If the change is stupid, don’t use it.

Still No Number

Hi again, I wrote the post below about seven this morning (PDT). Since I am still getting used to the peculiarities of the new block system, when I set it for 16:00 on 24 hour time, it thought I meant 4 AM instead of 4 PM. WordPress posted this three hours before I wrote it. Oops, time travel. My fault. No fault of the system, but now I wonder if it got through, so here it is again. Sorry about that.

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Hi folks,

This will be short. I may not have a post every Wednesday going forward. (Or I might.)

Since I am not attaching tags, or pretty picture to catch the eye, this will probably only be read by those who get it automatically. That’s the plan, anyway.

The simple fact is that I am swamped with putting together books for self-publication, with prepping one for conventional submission, and I still have an offscreen life.

Putting out posts on a regular schedule amounts to a soft contract with the reader, so I am letting you know — nothing wrong, just swamped. Thanks.

No Number

Hi folks,

This will be short. I may not have a post every Wednesday going forward. (Or I might.)

Since I am not attaching tags, or pretty picture to catch the eye, this will probably only be read by those who get it automatically. That’s the plan, anyway.

The simple fact is that I am swamped with putting together books for self-publication, with prepping one for conventional submission, and I still have an offscreen life.

Putting out posts on a regular schedule amounts to a soft contract with the reader, so I am letting you know — nothing wrong, just swamped. Thanks.

733. American Peasants

The semiquincentennial has passed. The fireworks are all over and the futile attempts to summarize 250 years in an hour are mostly over. 

America’s 250th birthday was too big an event to capture in a post, so I didn’t try. Instead, here is my American story — a thumbnail view of the last 150 years of my own family.

We were American entrepreneurs.

We were American peasants.

Both statements are true. The three generations I know well were part of capitalist America, with all its potential for success and failure. We (my grandfather, father, and I — until I escaped to college) were also farmers, which placed us at the mercy of the weather and of market conditions.

My father, if he were alive today, would be 100 years old.

My paternal grandfather, if he were alive today, would be 152.

My age? Never mind, but the three generations of us have seen a lot of history.

Between them, my paternal grandparents had twelve children. The first died in infancy, the last was stillborn. That isn’t a bad record for a time when most diseases were incurable. The eldest surviving children were mostly married and on their own by the time the youngest arrived.

My grandfather came to Oklahoma when it was still Indian Territory. So did my grandmother. They married there in 1902; Oklahoma became a state in 1907.

Their first house was without plumbing or running water. That was typical. Like most people of that era, they were farmers. Thirty years later they survived the Dust Bowl and the Great Depression, largely because they lived in the far north-eastern part of the state, on the edge of the Ozarks, which had less drought and fewer dust storms.

They lived their lives on a family farm. That is a phrase that brings a feeling of nostalgia to people who have never lived on one. It is actually an institution which survives on unpaid child labor.

When World War II began, their three youngest children — my father along with his older and younger brothers — were ripe for the draft. The eldest of the three volunteered, my father was drafted, but given a brief deferment to get in my grandfather’s crops for that year, and the youngest was drafted as soon as he was old enough.

They all returned alive. Their military stories are worth telling, but at another time.

Back from the war, my father married quickly. My parent’s first house was a converted chicken coop. Before the great expansion of suburban housing began, anything that had four walls and a roof was fair game for returning GIs. My father bought a milk truck and drove a route for the next several years, saving his money and buying dairy cows, which he housed on his brother’s farm.

Forget a city milk delivery cart, drawn by a faithful horse. Forget the stainless steel behemoths that you see on today’s roads. In those days, milk was transported in 10 gallon cans which were stored on the farm in a frigid water bath. Each milk can, with contents, weighed about a hundred pounds. They were picked up daily from each farm by milkmen who hoisted all of them manually, one by one, out of the cold tank, carried them outside to their refrigerated truck, hoisted them by hand to the high bed, then drove the the next farm. When the load was complete, they drove them to Tulsa and unloaded them, still by hand. It was a brutal business. 

After four years my father sold the truck and we all moved to a house (you would call it a shack) on my uncle’s farm. It had no plumbing, just an outhouse, and our water came from a milkman like my father had been.  He picked up milk from my father’s and uncle’s combined herd every day. When he unloaded his truck, he rinsed out one of the milk cans and filled it with city water. The next day it came back with the empties; we placed it on the counter in the kitchen. It provided 10 gallons a day for all uses.

No one paid for the water and no one paid the milkman for bringing it back from town. It was just a kindness among people during hard times.

After four years of living on my uncle’s farm and growing crops on rented land, we moved again, this time to our own place. It wasn’t much, and it was rented, but we worked together to fix it up. I did what I could; I was seven.

When I was eleven, I started working every day, twice a day, in the dairy barn. That continued until I was nineteen and went off to college. I also spent every day of summer driving a tractor, as well as many days in spring and fall. I once calculated that in winter I worked the farm about 35 hours a week, and in summer, closer to 50.

About the time I started working, we bought the farm from its owner, with a bank loan of course.

For about eight years, my father had my full, free labor. By the time I was fourteen I could drive a tractor as well as anyone and I competed with grown men to prove I could carry as many sacks of grain or fertilizer as they could. 

That’s the way boys grow up on a farm. Childhood? I didn’t have much of one, but I didn’t feel particularly cheated. I was a man at fifteen, and that was enough.

Still, I wouldn’t do it again for a billion dollars.

I left the farm in 1966 and, for reasons having nothing to do with this post, I only returned for brief visits.

The Great American Lie is that if you work hard enough, you will succeed. My father sought success and won it, to a degree. That is the entrepreneurial part of my family story.

Things didn’t go quite as well after I left, and then his life of immense labor finally caught up with him. His health failed. He could no longer do the work it takes to run a working farm, and there was not enough income to hire someone to take his place. Or mine. He could no longer pay the bank loan.

The bank took the farm.

Bill Gates and Elon Musk notwithstanding, that is the normal end of a business, or a farm. It is especially true when the children want out.

After a life of work and sacrifice, everything is lost when a man’s strength runs out — a peasant from the middle ages would have understood the situation perfectly.

732. Rebecca Wasson


O beautiful young republic for whom my John and I
Gave all of our strength and love!

The two hundred and fiftieth anniversary of America is nearly upon us. Great things have been done by great people, but I always find myself more interested in those who never made the news, nor the history books. Edgar Lee Master’s must have felt the same way, to judge by his book of poems Spoon River Anthology.

The people that spoke from that town’s cemetery, through Master’s pen, a century ago, have a lot to say to the rest of us. I am particularly moved by Rebecca Wasson, a hundred years old, remembering in her quiet room, and waiting for her husband’s return, which can only come at her very end.

Rebecca Wasson

Spring and Summer, Fall and Winter and Spring,
After each other drifting, past my window drifting
And I lay so many years watching them drift and counting
The years till a terror came in my heart at times,
With the feeling that I had become eternal; at last
My hundredth year was reached! And still I lay
Hearing the tick of the clock, and the low of cattle
And the scream of a jay flying through falling leaves!
Day after day alone in a room of the house
Of a daughter-in-law stricken with age and gray.
And by night, or looking out of the window by day
My thought ran back, it seemed, through infinite time
To North Carolina and all my girlhood days,
And John, my John, away to the war with the British,
And all the children, the deaths, and all the sorrows.
And that stretch of years like a prairie in Illinois
Through which great figures passed like hurrying horsemen,
Washington, Jefferson, Jackson, Webster, Clay.
O beautiful young republic for whom my John and I
Gave all of our strength and love!
And O my John!
Why, when I lay so helpless in bed for years,
Praying for you to come, was your coming delayed?
Seeing that with a cry of rapture, like that I uttered
When you found me in old Virginia after the war,
I cried when I beheld you there by the bed,
As the sun stood low in the west growing smaller and fainter
In the light of your face!

731. Cover Art, . . . the Bad and the Ugly

Again, the five covers at the top of this post represent my five published works, in chronological order. Let’s continue from the bottom left.

It is hard to tell from these thumbnails, but the quality of the “angel” is excellent.  The four “zombies in electronic boxes” are not so easy on the eyes, but I presume that was a deliberate choice by the artist, Kevin Eugene Johnson. I don’t criticize Johnson’s skill as an artist, and I don’t know who chose to use a symbolic representation of the novel, but the result was a killer.

A Fond Farewell to Dying was my second published novel. I was in a good place. After Jandrax sold, I was advised to get an agent and I found Virginia Kidd. You probably haven’t heard of her. Fame is fleeting for agents, but she was top of the line for the eighties. She pitched FFTD to David Hartman and he bought it.

Hartman was at Pocket Books and he was about to launch a new line called Timescape. FFTD was among the first group of books released, but when I saw the cover, my heart sank.

At the top is a banner proclaiming the new imprint. That was a good idea, since everyone was waiting for Timescape to arrive. But the image — it had nothing to do with the story. That’s not unusual, but in this case, it was almost certain to scare off anyone who would have enjoyed the actual story within.

This is about cover art, not blurbs, but I have to tell you what those tiny words just under the trumpet say, because they are a key to the thinking of whoever designed this mess:

WHAT PRICE LIFE?

SURRENDER YOUR BODY! GIVE UP YOUR SOUL!

Nope. Not even close to what the novel contained.

FFTD was a straight science fiction novel about artificial immortality through cloning and memory taping. One of my intentions was to treat the matter accurately. There was no end of cloning stories around in the early eighties, but most of them were, scientifically, pure BS. I wanted to do it better.

There were no zombies. There were no electronic boxes. There was no angel, particularly not an angel with a trumpet sounding out the Last Days.

I did use the interplay between Dave, a lapsed fundamentalist Christian, and Shashi, his lover who was Hindu and a  believer in reincarnation. Their arguments allowed me a deep look into the morality of artificial immortality, but it had nothing to do with zombies and angels of the last trump.

In the weeks after publication, I found a copy of FFTD in a local grocery store, in a dump full of religious books. Based on the cover, somebody had placed it beside The Bible Story Books and The Jesus Generation.

A Fond Farewell to Dying never found its audience. Big surprise.

Things get tangled in the world of publishing. In researching this post, I found out that the same image was used as the cover of Gute Nachrichten aus dem Vatikan und andere »Nebula«-Preis-Stories, which is the name under which the German translation of Nebula Award Stories Seven appeared.

Cover images are frequently recycled. Johnson’s image was a virtual parody of FFTD, but it had nothing at all to do with the Nebula winners. Oh, well. That’s business in the publishing industry.

More irony — FFTD itself sold to Goldman Verlag, another German publisher, in 1984. They changed the title to Todesgesange (Death Song) and chose a cover that looks like tormented creatures in a Hellscape. Take a look at the middle image in the bottom row.

Is that creature in the middle supposed to be a demonic angel?  I never could tell.

Arrrrrrr! You can translate that into your favorite cuss words. I don’t like to use profanity in A Writing Life.

A lot of things changed between FFTD and Cyan, the last thumbnail above. I had a lot of input into the details of publication, including an early look at the cover. I wasn’t always listened to, but that is to be expected. I was pleased with the artwork.

The creature on the cover looks a little too much like an actor in a skin suit, but it is actually a key creature from the story, a para-Cyl. The original Cyl were bipedal, tailless hoppers, sub-human but of relatively high intelligence. Because of (DELETED), one of the crew felt obligated to (DELETED) by means of recombinant DNA. Then she (DELETED) which caused no end of problems.

Cyan is still available from Amazon. When you read it, you will thank me for the deletions.

And when you visualize the Cyl, fold their legs, make their upper bodies smaller, their butts bigger, and their ears longer. But don’t make them look like kangaroos. Cyl don’t have tails, and that changes their whole anatomy.

730. Cover Art, the Good . . .

The five covers at the top of this post represent my five published works, in chronological order. Let’s take a closer look.

The first cover is a magazine, Galaxy, gone now but once highly influential. It was my first publication and I had the good fortune not only to be placed in Galaxy, but to be the cover story.

Just under the magazine title you will see a yellow-orange rectangle which can’t be read because of data loss. It gives my name and the title of my novella, then lists “Greg Benford: The Stars in Shroud, plus Pournelle, Fabian, Walker:.

These five covers are in order of their publication, not their creation. After a first novel which was unsaleable, I wrote Jandrax. Then I wrote the beginnings of the Menhir novels —  about as many words as Jandrax, but only a fraction of what that project would eventually become. Then I wrote A Fond Farewell to Dying.

At that time I was still unpublished. Before FFTD was finished, I had recognized that a chunk out of the middle could be separately marketed as a novella. I extracted it, trimmed it to fit, and sent it to Galaxy, then finished FFTD. They bought the novella, changed the name to To Go Not Gently, and provided the cover art. All I had to do was sign my name to the contract.

I’ve told all this before, but today we are here to analyze cover art. The scene depicted is quite accurate to the story. That often doesn’t happen. The guy in the center is David Singer, aka Ram David Singh, an American biologist working in the post-nuke era when India is the only remaining country which wasn’t basically destroyed by the last war. He is on his way to an important meeting as he passes through the Avenue of Abominations, a street in Bombay where mutants gather.

It is a somewhat old fashioned style of cover art, completely appropriate to a magazine which had been around since the Golden Age of science fiction.

Jandrax came next. I received an acceptance after TGNG had been bought, but before it was published. The sale of TGNG had no influence.

The art, by Doug Bleekman, is superb. Again, I had nothing to do with it. I saw it first when the author’s copies of the book arrived by mail. The creatures are leers, and yes they should be giant birds, and yes they were supposed to be pink. They also had teeth. I knew that brown reads fierce and pink reads silly, but I chose to work against expectations. The fellow with the long hair, leather clothing, and antique rifle is also true to the novel. He is a second generation survivor of a lost and stranded starship.

My first review, a one-liner in Locus, just talked about fierce flamingos. I have to accept that. Covers are completely about snap judgements.

Notice how big the title is, and how yellow. Against the pink sky and above the pink birds, it really grabs the eye. Notice how tiny my name is. That, too, is appropriate. It was my first novel; nobody had heard of me; making my name bigger would not have sold any more books, and it would have detracted from the overall effect.

I loved that cover. I didn’t love the next one, but we can talk about that next week.

More next time.

729. Covers

When you pick up a book that you might want to read, the first thing you see is the cover. It would be hard to overstate it’s importance.

On the Mary Tyler Moore show, decades ago, Mary asked an author in an interview, “When did you know your book would become a bestseller?” He replied, “When I saw that they had put a naked woman on the cover.”

Yeah, it’s like that.

When I was in college in the sixties, I would stop at the State News just about every day to see what was new. I would pick up any book whose cover caught my eye and read the first page. Most of the time, that was enough. It went back on the rack.

Bookstores are disappearing, and we are all on-line now. A few years ago, if a cover caught my eye, I would go to Amazon, check out the read me function and read the first page. Usually that would lead to the same result, no sale. Lately, the name has changed to read sample and it seems to be missing for a lot of the books I want to know more about. I end up chasing reviews.

Covers have become increasingly important in e-life, since they are frequently the only thing the would-be reader gets.

By now you must be wondering about the covers at the top of this post. They represent my five published works, in chronological order. Which one is not like the others?

You might say top left. True, because it is of different proportions, wider for its height. That is because it is a digest size magazine, not a novel.

Second choice? I hope you said bottom right because that cover represents the shift to on-line sales.

At a newsstand, or in a bookstore, or in a dump in a grocery store, (a dump is a temporary cardboard bookshelf provided by the publisher) you only see the cover when it is on the book. It is always full size.

On-line we see thumbnails of covers. The beautiful artwork that used to adorn them, and still does in many cases, requires a microscope to admire. The title and author, however, have to be readable at any scale.

Cyan is primarily an e-book, with POD (print on demand) available for those who don’t want to read on screen. It is not self-published; EDGE of Canada published it. They provided appropriate cover art and made the title and author’s name quite large.

Since I am now in the process of starting self-publication, I have become even more focused on covers. E-book covers are now mostly words. There is usually still cover art and often it is excellent. Once it springs to size on your desktop computer or tablet, you can appreciate it. Not so much on a small screen e-reader, and on your smart phone the cover is pretty much still a thumbnail.

I have seen hundreds of e-covers while doing research. Many put everything in its proper proportion. Many others are basically just title and author’s name, with minimal artwork. Others look like they were produced for the newsstand with nice art, but the title and author’s name are far to small to be effective in a thumbnail.

Nevertheless, the artwork is usually still there, and it can still boost sales if it is eye-catching. It can still kill sales if it is ugly, or inappropriate for the text inside. It’s just harder to deal with now that it is tiny while in it’s native environment, your smart phone.

More on this next time.

728. Wildlife in the Land of Fire

Today is Wednesday, my regular posting day, June 3, 2026. Scheduled in eight hours was 728. Covers, promised last week.

Something timely has come up to shove it and the next few posts down the pipeline by a week. Two things actually, one benign and fun, the other a bit jarring.

I live in the foothills of the Sierras, at about the thousand foot elevation. It is the level that they call the heat zone. I once heard another resident say that where we live, even the rattlesnakes carry canteens. We moved here decades ago to get out of the crowded central valley.

It rains about twelve inches during the winter. Everything is green and lush while the Eastern states are under snow, but from May until October there is no rain. Not a drop. The grasses go brown-golden and crackle in the sun, like tinder.

We came here for the space and the wildlife. Buzzards circle every day. They are quite beautiful, since their odd red heads are hidden by altitude. Occasionally there are bald eagles circling with them, and often red tail hawks, crows, and geese.

On the ground, there are wild turkeys. A few years ago a flock came frequently to our place, to loll beneath the shade trees in the heat of summer. One year an injured adult stayed on our property all summer, recuperating, then disappeared in the fall.

Recently, turkeys have been scarce at our place, but a few days ago a new flock, three adults and about a dozen babies, started coming through. We’ve missed having a personal flock of turkeys.

That is the benign and fun thing. The other is fire — not benign and not fun.

Every summer there are fires, often large, often close by, sometimes on our doorstep. Yesterday, it happened again, and once again we dodged the bullet.

About two in the afternoon, I heard aircraft flying low overhead, and the phone rang with an evacuation alert. We jumped into the car, to be ready for a quick retreat. From the end of the driveway we could see a black cloud of smoke on the next road over. We drove around the twisting roads to visually triangulate the center, pulling off from time to time to let fire crews go by.

It was a small fire by California standards, but just the kind that can spread devastation measured in square miles if allowed to grow. There was a small spotter plane circling high overhead, a helicopter shuttling back and forth to a nearby lake to drop hundreds of gallons of water onto the fire and a larger plane divebombing loads of fire retardant between the flames and nearby houses. The retardant plane is what you see in the photo above.

That’s where I live — full of wildlife, beautiful, dangerous, and often quite lively. When I finish this post, I’ll drive over to see the details. All the roads into the area were closed off by fire crews yesterday.

As nearly as I can tell from Google Maps, the fire was about a half mile away.